First Ride - Post Crash

I've thrown my leg over the top bar twice since April 8th.  Today is July 17.  The two previous rides I'd taken were just to tool around and try out the fit of my new mountain bike, a Surly Karate Monkey 29er.  Well, new to me, a 2015 model I found on Craigslist.

I got frustrated with the functionality of the keyboard and smashed it.

I know it's been a while since I posted, but I just haven't had much to write about.  My concussion has been pretty severe, limiting me to casual walks every few days for exercise.  Anymore and I'd end up dizzy and forgetful and fuzzy and ... the worst part, angry.  That's really the worst part, the temper, of a concussion like this.  It's bad enough that my loved ones must suffer my moping and sulking, the extra noise I've made on the guitar since I can't occupy myself with much else.  But throw in some anger and impulse control issues and it's a whole new level, right?

So I've been spending a lot of time by myself, working on a math website and math book designed to help high school level students.  I've enjoyed it, but I miss pushing myself physically and miss the social aspect of riding even more.  I promise, this isn't a pity part, just stay with me.

Yesterday my cousin asked me to swing my his house and make sure his door was closed.  He's a little neurotic about that sometimes.  I've done it before for him and it's always been locked, but told him I'd check anyway.  It was raining and I rushed out of the car, in my flip-flops, to check his door.  I stepped out of the rain, onto the sidewalk in front of his door and my leading foot slipped.  My trailing foot slapped into the lip of the concrete.  

I'm not sure if I broke my foot, or my toe, or what.  I'm certain there is some ligament damage and it's quite painful.  

I got up this morning and realized there was no way I could go for a walk.  Perhaps the gym.  I knocked out my projects for my website, wrote about 11 pages for the math book and took care of some other odds and ends.  I saw my bike hanging on the wall and just said, "What the hell, I'm getting hurt trying to heal.  Let's just go for a ride."

After inflating the tires on the Karate Monkey I loaded it on the bike rack.  As I backed down the driveway, the strap on the bike rack broke loose.  I'm lucky I saw it and didn't damage my bike.  I was at my end...completely and totally.  I mean ready to flip my lid completely and totally.

But I gathered myself and decided to ride to this Jeep trail down the road from my house.  It's sandy and not fun, I imaged.  But it was a good workout.

I have platform pedals which are both good and bad.  My feet slipped off a couple of times going up some steep and rocky sections, but since I wasn't clipped in, I could just put a foot down.  Not sure how I feel about them yet.  Might make the switch to "real" pedals soon.

Really not much to say beyond that.  I went for a ride today.  Didn't plan on it, just went.  It was good to get out.  To be completely transparent I'm a little frustrated by how beat up my left leg is. I'm not sure why that one is so trashed from the crash, I landed on the right side of my head.  Not sure why the complete other side is messed up, but weird things happen in crashes.

Anyhow, chin up, pedals down and go!

Since it was my first ride I decided to shoot a little video of it.  Here it is:

Well that escalated quickly!

It's been a month since my crash.  I believe the worst of my concussion is behind me, but I'm still pretty beat up.  I can handle the pain, but need to listen to it as to not further injure myself.

This week I hope to begin my come-back tour!  I'm going to go to the gym and see if I can start lifting some light weights and will begin work on the indoor trainer again.  I hope to get out one some easy trails and tool around a bit on my mountain bike.

I'd love to say, "This week I'm going to do this program exactly," but I think I'm more injured than I originally believed.  Still, I'm improving and have enjoy the hell outta some guacamole, chips and beer in the mean time.  And that's why what has escalated quickly has done so...and what has escalated quickly, you may ask?  Well, my weight of course.   I do NOT want to step on the scale in the morning.  But, it's time.

Not much to write about, as I've not been able to train, put my bike back together, or do much of anything but work.  That's taken all of my energy.  But I'm improving and wanted to give anybody that's following a long an update.

If all goes well, next week I'll have some exciting news.

Until then, thanks for reading.

What's Your Secret?

There was a period of about 2 years where I was asked regularly, often in confidence, "So, really, tell me, what's your secret?"

Aug 2011 to Aug 201

I'm one for playing jokes, but the desperation exposed in the question is a sign of a truly desperate person.  To deceive them for my own amusement wouldn't be a joke at all, it would be a level of cruelty that I'm certain must be outlawed by the Geneva Convention.

I could have easily said, "Kale ... I mix kale in everything ... oh, and I avoid anything with carbon."

Or, perhaps, "I only eat laying on my back with my legs propped up on the couch.  Sounds weird, I know, but it forces more blood flow to the stomach, which quickens digestion and promotes nutrient uptake."

But when I said, "Diet and exercise," people looked at me as though I was insulting their intelligence.  They'd have written down, word for word, "Don't, EVER,  eat anything with the letter R in its name, and avoid any food that requires a spoon. And cooking things for more than 185 seconds promotes fat accumulation on your butt!"

When pressed to expound on my method I'd say, "Do more, eat less," to which I'd often be left watching the other person flip around and walk away without as much as a thank you.

I see how so many diet books sell, why fads are so exciting.  People really want to lose weight and will be willing to devote great focus and attention over a short period of time.  But weight loss takes change.

Coming out of the gas chamber in basic training 1992

I'm around 200 pounds, or was when I got hurt a few weeks ago, and for someone built like I am and my age, that's a healthy weight.  Of course, not on the BMI scale, but body fat and general health tell me, I'm pretty thin.  This is the weight I was in the military and could run 2 miles in 11:30, and the weight I'd work to maintain if I wasn't a cyclist.  Two hundred pounds is a lot, on paper, for a dude about 5' 9", but at 200 I'm pretty fit.  

But 200 pounds, as a cyclist, is a lot of weight to push around, regardless of how much of it is muscle.  And since I live in a very hilly area, and like to ride hills, the weight is a limiter!  I want to drop to 175 with the idea that I can still keep my power at that weight, that I can lose only fat to be there.  In fact, I'll go ahead and throw this out there, I want to have more power at 175 than I did at 200 pounds.  I think that's possible in my situation because I'm not anywhere near my potential on the bike, I only trained for about 6 months before all this fell apart for me.  I was still experiencing big gains, no where neat a plateau.  

I'm writing to share with you, in detail, "my secret."  You know, the one people asked me about in the past.  The secret I'll be pressed for in the future, if I'm successful.  But, I'm writing ahead of time, so you can read in all glorious detail what led to my success or failure in this endeavor.

This time it's different though.  I've never done a "diet" before.  I've always done practical, long term changes.  But now I want to drop some weight for racing, hold that weight through the season. 

Here we go:

I shared my nutrition plan in my previous post.  There's a pretty strict menu from which I will eat.  It basically follows the idea to fuel the day's activities.  So carbs in the morning, smart lunch, and minimal dinner (since sleep needs little fuel).  If I'm in a situation where I'm out and it's dinner time, I'll have to try my best to pick something appropriate.

In the mornings I'll be going to the gym three times a week doing StrongLifts 5x5 program (usually takes about 30 minutes).  Then in the afternoons I'll be doing trunk exercises (pushups, pull ups and such), my physical therapy routine for my back, all followed by an hour workout Tuesday through Friday, following Sweet Spot Base, High Volume in TrainerRoad.

For those that don't know, TrainerRoad is great.  Select a program, do an FTP test (or select your own FTP manually), and start a program.  The software will walk you through each workout and the program, day by day, and track your progress.  An idiot like me can use it, so I know it's easy!

If possible I'd like to start running again, but that possibility will take a back-seat for now (but I do have permission from my back surgeon to run.)

For tracking caloric intake and weight loss I'll be using MyFitnessPal's app.  I'll use their software to come up with a deficit of 1,500 calories a day, which should lead me to around 3 pounds a week.  I'll give it a few weeks to see if it's accurate enough and adjust where needed.

For those that don't know what I mean, here's how it works.  The app will calculate how many calories you need to lose a certain number of pounds a week based on questions you answer (age, activity, gender and so on).  You enter your activities and food consumed, it estimates the caloric demands and values and it tells you if you've hit your target, eaten too little, or eaten too much for the day.  So, if I'm on target, and the software works, I should average 3 pounds a week, at least at the beginning of the 12 weeks.

That's a lot of calories a day, a big negative hole.  But, because I have a fairly high FTP, each of those hour workouts will burn about 850 calories.  Add to those calories burned the strength training and high level of activity I wish to maintain on a daily basis (walking around all day), I think 1,500 is a number I can hit regularly.  (One key will be to eat satiating foods!)

I cannot start the program yet, I have a lot of healing to do still.  Heck, I've not even returned to work yet.  Well, I did, but just one day.  My concussion is still making me dizzy, though I don't think the confusion is there anymore.  Ribs still hurt, especially when laying down and I fear my right hand may be broken.  I return to the doctor Tuesday for a check-up.

So I cannot say exactly when I will begin this 12 week program, but I've got it fleshed out in detail.  If it works, feel free to steal my ideas.  If it fails, use it as a counter-example.  Either way, I hope this has been informative and perhaps entertaining.  

What's Next?

Starting 4/24 I'm starting a nutrition plan.  As soon as I'm able to start training again I will launch a 12 week weight-loss program.  I'll outline both of them here now with the hopes that it will help me be accountable and perhaps it can help you, the reader, to see if this might be worth while for you.

But first, my goals:  By the end of 2017, I want to be at least 180 pounds.

Nutrition plan:

Breakfast:  Oatmeal (the steel cut variety), with blueberries and maybe some fruit.
AM Snack:  Apple
Lunch:  Salad (two varieties to choose from ... one with cottage cheese and salmon, another with nuts, craisins, a boiled egg and a little dressing), and maybe a sweet potato depending on caloric requirements of the day.
Dinner:  One of the following:  Eggs, protein shake, meat and veggies
PM Snack:  If needed, peanut butter or boiled egg


Rules:

• No food after 7 PM.  
• Alcohol - None 
• Sweets - None
• Avoid things with added sugar
• At least a gallon of water a day (drunk consistently, not large volumes in short times)
• On-bike nutrition:  fruit and nuts (will be doing mostly sweet-spot intensity)

Exercise Program:

Since I'll be stuck indoors for a while so I'll be hitting up TrainerRoad again.  I really like their program and with Netflix, Hulu and YouTube at my fingertips, it's not half as bad to train indoors as I once feared.   The program with TR that I'll start is the Sweet Spot, High Volume plan.  It's two parts, each part being 6 weeks long.  The nice thing about this program is that each workout burns a lot of calories and while taxing, isn't quite intense enough to require a lot of recovery!

At the same time I start the TR program I will also begin StrongLift's 5x5 program at the gym.  This is a quick workout, done three times a week, just 5 total exercises!  Each time you're in and out of the gym in 30-ish minutes.  It's a great strength building program.

Now along with the weights I may go ahead and start a couch to 5K program as I believe bone health is an important thing to maintain as a cyclist.  But, that one will take some exploration.  

I'll do one of the programs in the morning and the other in the afternoon.

So while I'll be working out twice a day, both workouts will be very focused and pretty short (TR sessions mostly 1 hour long).

I'll be shooting for a deficit of about 1,500 calories a day, between exercise and nutrition.  That should get me at the very aggressive 3 pounds a week mark.  This should not be an issue at the onset of the program, but later in the program I will have to evaluate how that is working.  

On 4/24 I will post my weight and do a weekly write-up of how things have gone in general.

Anyhow, that's the plan.  Wish me luck!

Not All is Lost, Not At All

While  canceling the preparations for Tour of the Gila I began thinking about all of the sacrifices I made to prepare for the race.  Hanging out with friends some weekends, hiking with my wife on Saturday mornings, staying up late to watch football games or movies, treats in the breakroom...not to mention the early mornings where you feel beat and drained, but the training window is ever-shrinking and you must go or get caught short.  And that doesn't even consider the pain and suffering of training!

For the briefest of moments I was sad, thinking, "It's all for not because I'm not going to Gila."  (Yes, I've known this for a few days now, but my concussed brain has the perpetual spinning worry wheel, like a computer app that's slow to load.)  I quickly realized that this was not the case at all, it's not a waste.  True, Gila is out the window, at least for this year, but so much good has come from those sacrifices I made, even the tough ones.

I have gotten far more from the preparation for Tour of the Gila than I could've imagined.  I raced a lot, and learned even more.  I love racing, so I got to do a lot of what I love is perhaps the better way of saying, I raced, a lot!  I made a lot of new friends, and reconnected with old ones.  I found myself on the podium quite frequently, even winning a couple of road races.

I told myself that regardless of the outcome of Gila, it was a win for me because I'm able to participate again.  Well, I can't participate right now, or for a few months, but this is temporary.  I am able to ride and race again.  Because of that, missing out on Gila is not a waste of the sacrifices made.

My new plans are to use this down time as an opportunity to further rehabilitate some of the lingering issues from my back injury (muscular imbalances, neuro-muscular inefficiencies), as well as focus on weight loss for a few months.  I'm going to try to get down to 180 before the end of the summer.  I'll participate in races that fit my schedule in the remainder of 2017, but I'm not training for any of them.

So, missing out on Gila doesn't mean anything has been wasted.  To the contrary, this is a win.  I discovered I can still ride and even race, which is no slight miracle of an outcome, regardless of how well I can race I'm spending time with great people, I am making the most of the opportunities presented to me, learning a lot about something that interests me, and enjoying life.  If that's a loss, well, I'll be a loser all day long!

Thanks for reading.

Week 14: Here comes next year!

Week 14 didn't turn out as I hoped.  The training during the week witnessed new power and speeds for me, again!  I was getting stronger and stronger, blowing past my old best efforts.  My biggest weakness was short burst power, but I hit well over 1,200 watts on a warm up sprint Thursday!

But it all changed on Saturday.  Saturday I did the shootout, and planned on meeting up with some teammates to go up Madera Canyon.  The last time I did the shootout healthy, I got spit out the back.  But, that was a while ago and I thought today would be much different.

Well, different, it was.

I had no trouble staying with the group to the bridge or the next few miles after the bridge, both sections are difficult for me in the Main Shootout because I'm fat.  I was getting ready for Sprint Hill when some dude two wheels to my right just came in to his left for no reason at all.  Originally I thought he was swerving to miss a pot-hole or something, but I have GoPro footage of it...there was NOTHING there.  He bumped the rider next to me, who would've gone down if I wasn't there to take his fall.  I leaned into him, he straighted up and then left me to counterbalance and overcorrect and slam into the pavement on my head at 26 mph.  (Keep in mind all of that happened in a split second and I'll post the video here in this entry.)

The vinyl coloring is all that holds the helmet in one piece!

Long story short, two ambulance rides and two ER visits, a chest tube to inflate and drain the lung, a sponge bath, 2 CT scans, 14 x-rays and four days later I'm finally home.  From the crash I suffered broken ribs, a collapsed lung, a concussion, a bone bruise on my left knee, extensive roadrash and bruising of course, and the general aches and pains that go with 26 to zero mph on the pavement in zero seconds.  My right side, where I went down, is pulverized.  Everything is tender. But ... I'll recover.

Monday, though, Monday was dark.  It was one of the worst days I've ever had.  I won't go into details because I would really rather not relive it.  Eventually I was able to sleep deep and that provided a bit of a reset for my body.  When I woke in the afternoon I saw that my sister had set up an account where people could donate money to help me with some of the medical expenses.  At this point, people have donated about $1,500!  It's not the money, but the support that turned my ultimate bad day into one of the best days of my life.  I am deeply touched by the outpouring of support, be it in social media, phone calls, text messages, visits in the hospital or financial donations!  I had so many people, many of whom I barely know, go out of their way to provide encouragement and company and money ... it's truly humbling.

So what's next?  A lot.  I've got six weeks off of the bike.  I can ride on the indoor trainer as much as I like, and I made huge gains last winter doing just that.  So my plan is to focus on healing first, get to a point where I can start training at an intensity where I can focus on weight loss and work hard to get down to 180-ish.

Now I feel horrible for putting my family and friends through the heartache of watching me in the hospital and suffering like that.  I'm not insensitive to those things.  I don't ever want to put them through anything of that sort again, which is tricky because riding a bike is dangerous, especially racing.  In the coming weeks I'll talk with my wife about racing in the future, but she was ready to go out and buy me a new bike on the spot if mine was destroyed in the crash (which it wasn't).  So I think she knows how good racing is for me mentally and emotionally.

I will try and learn from this crash, though I really don't see what I could've done differently.  I was just riding along and got slammed into from the right, and hard, going over 25 mph.  I know I got hit hard because I get bumped a lot in these rides and I almost never get moved.  That's one up-shot of outweighing other cyclists by 50 pounds!

I currently am suffering from a lot of confusion and what-not from the concussion, but wanted to write about what happened and give a brief teaser of what's to come for me.  In the near future I'll flesh out what I'm doing next and will keep this blog updated with those plans and they progress they provide.

If you don't want to see pictures of blood, or images that might be disturbing, like my head sliding against the pavement, go ahead and leave now.

Here's the video.  I cropped it pretty short, can't see much, but you CAN see Bryan Little, who was behind me, save his own neck with an incredible bunny hop over me and my bike!  Unfortunately he still went down, but wasn't seriously injured! He must be a ninja!

Collapsed lung and abnormal diaphragm 

That's my head and hand on the pavement.

Week 13: Persistence, not Perfect ... Gila is coming!

I believe strength training is very important for endurance athletes, but especially those that have had over-use injuries (which perhaps should be called muscular imbalances), or a history of chronic injury to an area.  So every morning I have the following routine.

In my tiny little narrow kitchen I prepare my lunch and do lunges, then squats, one-legged squats and calf-raises.  I do pushups and pull ups, too.  I often use the counter to help keep me stable with the one-legged squats and calf raises, if I'm having a "bad day," meaning my balance on my left leg is off a bit.

Week 13 started off just, eh ... I was tired from the previous three weeks of racing.  In fact, Tuesday I cut my workout short after the first interval.  But, the week turned out to be a time where I witnessed a lot of new cycling prowess on the bike as a result of all of that hard racing the previous three weeks!

I ended up with 14 personal bests on Strava segments, 13 of those were KOMs, and while the weather helped with some of the time splits, the power was up for all of them!  Saturday I traveled to Tucson and did the Bicycle Ranch ride and then had an informal team get-together after the ride.  It was a lot of fun.

So, all told, I'm too fat and heavy for Gila, but I'm excited about going anyway.  It's too bad that I won't be going with Tim, but I'll make the most of it.

A short post this week because I have a lot of irons in the fire at the moment, but wanted to let those following along know how things are progressing.

A shirt and logo I'm working on.